I am my own worst enemy

I can't believe it is already May.
That means we are five months into the year. Or in other words we are almost half-way through 2007.
And I can't help but wonder (gosh I have been watching too many 'Sex in the City' repeats)... is the year half empty or half full?

In my eyes 2007 was going to be a year that held great promise and potential. I had just left a job that consumed me emotionally and creatively in 2006, taken a step back from my involvement University commitments, and started saying ‘no’ to people. In theory I should have copious amounts of spare time to take over the world with.
But somehow this isn’t the case.

I hate my current reality.
I am so behind with my University work (& scared I am going to fail my core subject), neglecting my friends, working too many hours at my pointless part-time job, in dept to Centerlink, and all the while my brain is too overworked to get me out of this trouble.
Huff... :(

You know what though?
This doesn't have to be my reality anymore. The first half of the year might have been pretty tragic, but the second half is going to be amazing.
I just need to start believing in myself.

~ I am... a talented illustrator, multimedia designer and artist

~ I am... going to get on top of my University homework

~ I am... a good friend.
Those who love me will understand that I need to take time out to organize my life, will support me when I need them, and will be there to party with me at the end.

~ I am... happy being single.
(WARNING: This is coming straight for a cheesy self-help book) "I need to love myself before I can love anyone else"

~ I am... allowed to take time out for myself.
Everything needs to be balanced. It is okay to go to the gym, meet a friend for coffee or go out dancing with a hot boy (Timmy) every now and then.

~ I am... going to save enough money to go overseas at the end of the year.

~ I am... going to be an organized person.
My diary will be my bible. I will make lists and then actually use them. I will stick to my daily plans.

~ I am... a unicorn.
"What the?"

~ I am... going to use this blog.
All these thoughts keep floating through my mind, and they are making me crazy!

Vee.